Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Are you being treated like a child? Who controls what you get to hear?

There's a little story I've been sitting on for close to a year. It's time I told it.

As most of my readers know, I am a co-owner of Sonlight Curriculum, Ltd., a Christian homeschool curriculum developer and supply company. I resigned from day-to-day involvement in the company effective April 1 last year.

Shortly after I resigned, I received news that the company had been banned from displaying its materials at the homeschool convention sponsored by CHEC, the Christian Home Educators of Colorado, our local Christian homeschool association. The letter that informed us of our having been banned was strangely uninformative. I am not at home right now, so I don't have access to a PDF of the letter to show you. But, in essence, the author said, "You don't meet our standards. We are unwilling to talk with you about it. Don't ask."

Happily, I have enough of a relationship with the president of CHEC (not much, but enough!) that I wrote to ask what was going on, what insight he might be able to shed on the subject. . . . I mean: It's not as if Sonlight had changed in any fundamental way over the 13 years it had been in attendance at the CHEC convention. . . .

Ultimately, Sonlight received no written or full "official" explanation, but got the message: the convention committee was of the opinion that the company isn't Christian enough . . . primarily because it isn't strict enough in its young-earth teaching. It carries Usborne books that, as virtually all secular books that touch on issues related to origins, present an evolutionary perspective.

That Sonlight doesn't schedule those pages, or that, when it does schedule them, counters those presentations with young-earth creationist material: Not good enough. Someone--a child, perhaps, without Mom's or Dad's permission, or maybe even a mom or dad--might find the offending books so attractive that they will read those pages and become convinced of their truth. . . .

CHEC, apparently, can't trust Christian homeschoolers in Colorado to do their own research, read what "the other side" is saying, and/or come to their own conclusions in these matters. CHEC feels the need to protect homeschool families from themselves . . . and from companies like Sonlight that don't teach origins in quite the way CHEC prefers.

What really bothers me: CHEC's behavior, in essence, answers my paper--Young-Earth and Old-Earth Creationists: Can We Even Talk to One Another?--in the negative: "No. We can't. And, to the extent it is up to us, we won't."

Moreover, its behavior suggests that, if it were up to CHEC, they would keep modern homeschoolers away from a whole lot of evangelical and fundamentalist stalwarts of the last hundred years or more: people like B.B. Warfield (a giant in conservative biblical studies during the late 19th century), J. Vernon McGee (key radio evangelist of the mid-20th century with the Back to the Bible broadcast), James Dobson (yes, that James Dobson--of Focus on the Family), and others. Y'know, these guys simply weren’t (or aren't) "pure" enough in their stance on the age of the earth and/or the specific mechanism(s) by which God created the world. Only leaders who teach in lock-step with Ken Ham and the Answers in Genesis and Institute for Creation Research crowd deserve a place at the CHEC convention.

Pretty amazing . . . and depressing (in my opinion).

But Sonlight's banning occurred quietly. In the "back room."

Who heard?

I think CHEC hoped to keep it that way.

But I finally decided to tell the story. Because I don't think stories like this should remain hushed up. We need to know how our knowledge is being circumscribed.

If you're involved in homeschooling, especially Christian homeschooling, I wonder if your state convention sponsors may be keeping you from hearing the "other side" in debates that concern you?

****Editorial "Revision" (1/30/09; 6:20PM): I was just reviewing some old documents and discovered my memory of the chronology of events was incorrect. I want to correct, here, my false memories of chronology.

I will post a separate/new post with unmistakable details that may clarify and/or throw greater light on what really has taken place.

(1/31/09; 11:30AM): Full update is now available here.)

44 comments:

Paul Merrill ( Who am I? ) said...

The close-mindedness exhibeted by CHEC is just what makes a bad name for Christians out there in the marketplace.

Sad.

Karen Joy ( Who am I? ) said...

Wow. That is really disturbing.

One of the reasons I chose SL is because I didn't want my kids to go through what I did: holed up in the library as a freshman at a secular university, trying to figure out why I didn't believe in evolution. I went to a Christian school for my whole PreK-12th grade education, and the extent of my education on evolution was, "Evolution is bad." So, it was important to me, as a homeschooling mother, to educate my kids as to not only what (and why) I/we believe, but what others believe, and what they will likely encounter in the "real" world which is filled with non-Christians, and even Christians who don't believe as they do.

I sincerely hope SL does not back down from its decision to present the other side, or take a soft stance on the topic.

Truth will hold up to scrutiny. And, if it doesn't, then it's not truth. If it's not truth, it doesn't belong amongst my beliefs. Trouble is, the truth of that particular debate is difficult to ascertain because evidence can be interpreted different ways; no one alive today was present when the earth was created. God has the power to create however He chooses.

I am 95% a YEC'er. Meaning, it seems to me that the evidence is very favorable towards the possibility of a young earth, but I'm not dogmatic about it. I also let my kids know that, as well. I want to teach them, but I also want to leave room for them to ultimately decide for themselves.

I don't believe our salvation hangs on whether or not our earth is 8,000 years old, or multiple billions of years old.

Now... my own soft stance has not been enough to keep the pro-evolutionist trolls off of my blog, but that's another story altogether. It appears that, like you, I'm too conservative for the liberals, and too liberal for the conservatives. :)

Otter ( Who am I? ) said...

I'm not sure why you should be surprised at this, John. This is from CHEC's Doctrinal Statement:

1. The Bible is the inspired and infallible Word of God and constitutes completed and final revelation. The Bible, in its original autograph, is without error in whole or in part; including theological concepts as well as geographical, historical and scientific details.

Strictly junior high theology, but there in black and white.

It's true that this doesn't explicitly state that no other position will be considered, but why would you think that's not implied?

I can't share your outrage at CHEC's decision, but if your target is the confusion between biblical literalism / fundamentalism and "Christian truth," I'm there with you: in these cases homeschooling isn't about education but about maintaining a crippling ignorance in order to preserve a hermeneutical system that has no merit in the eyes of God or nature.

Luke ( Who am I? ) said...

Well said.

It will be interesting to see how this shakes out...

~Luke

Knittin'Peace ( Who am I? ) said...

This kind of information just confirms my commitment to SL.

We love ya man!!

Skylark ( Who am I? ) said...

This is EXACTLY the kind of thing that makes me wary of Christian home education organizations!

Gloria Stengel ( Who am I? ) said...

Great post. I've been using Sonlight for about 7-8 years now (out of our 10 years of hsing). And it's not harmed us in any way. We are not members of our state or local hs group(s). For many reasons. Keep telling your stories,John!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for this information. Of course it shouldn't be hushed up! As a Colorado home school teacher, I'm grateful to know about this attempt to limit our options. Shameful!

thatmom ( Who am I? ) said...

John, I personally find this appalling. But not expected. There is a movement afoot to marginalize any homeschoolers who don't share the vision of those who have set themselves us as the standard bearers of Christian home education. I will be blogging about this and linking to your interesting article as well as sharing it with others who will do likewise. Hang in there and thank you for being honest and telling the truth.

Here is a link to my thoughts on those who are grabbing the reigns of power and speaking for the rest of us.
http://thatmom.wordpress.com/2008/11/17/phillips-swanson-baucham-and-ray-casting-a-vision-for-whom-not-me/

Jenny ( Who am I? ) said...

If it's any consolation, my very conservative family uses Sonlight for the very reason you were banned from CHEC. We would rather think for ourselves than to be told what to think. If the truth is really the truth, there is no reason to fear reading a different viewpoint. It also seems logical to read what "the other side" believes from their own pen, rather than to have someone of the opposite persuasion explain it.

We used the Sonlight Pre-K core our first year, then decided to continue on for Kindergarten....except for Science (on the advice of a friend). After half a year of Apologia, we've decided to try Sonlight for everything next year. (Am I the only one who thinks it is insane to make the signs of the zodiac into Christian symbols?)

Anyhow, keep up the good work. Those of us who appreciate it will do our best to spread the word.

Jill in Kentucky ( Who am I? ) said...

Great post and I agree 100%. I hate the paternalistic stance that CHEC and some other homeschool organizers take.

Trudee ( Who am I? ) said...

I'm glad for the information, sad for the treatment you received! It's not new, certainly not to us who represent one of the main founders of modern homeschooling (Dr. Raymond Moore). We Christians haven't yet learned what a Christian is--never mind who created what, when or how! We are too busy with judgmentalism to seeking to understand that real judging is bringing about justice & relieving the oppressed.

I've had to handle more than one irate, irrational adult on the phone, who found a small mention in a book we've sold thatseemed to the individual to mean we arrived straight from the hot place and how dare we sell such a book.T he fundamental platform that reminds us that the only book that can be totally relied on for full truth, is the Bible, and folks tend to twist even that good Book into strange shapes at times.

In my 22 years with the Moore Academy, I've learned to look up, say "Thank you, Lord," for His loving heart that forgave all those who sought to hurt the good cause. I also know in my heart that like the builders on the walls of Old Jerusalem, I am "doing a good work and cannot come down," (to argue my case!)

Keep your trumpet in one hand and your trowel in the other and keep on keeping on!

Trusting Him Always,

Ellen Dana
Lead Teacher and
Educational Consultant
Moore Academy

Melissa ( Who am I? ) said...

Thank you, John, for posting that! I think it needed to be said. I'm in Arizona, but if I were a Colorado homeschooler, I'd be furious. Actually, I'm pretty ticked anyway.

Kim & Dave ( Who am I? ) said...

Wow!!! That's unbelievable, John!!

Kim.....a happy Sonlighter in Co!!

W. said...

John - thanks for letting this be known. I hope Colorado homeschoolers stand up to the leadership that is trying to steer the group off in an extreme direction.

Sonlight is a wonderful curriculum. We've used it for years. I appreciate all the work and thought that goes into putting those core packages together.

Merry ( Who am I? ) said...

Wow. That's pretty appalling. And especially ironic since the president, whom I have heard speak, is very anti-governmental control. I guess it's their party...

AllyJo ( Who am I? ) said...

I'm shocked. Sonlight has always been "Christian" enough for me and I'm as conservative and orthodox as you can find. Sonlight I feel is the best at teaching your children to discern. I would rather my children be able to reason, discern good from evil, know all the facts and arguments which they will come face to face with every day of their lives, than make perfect SAT scores or speak Latin forwards and backwards.

One of the reasons I love Sonlight so much is because it doesn't teach denominationalism. There are a lot of Christian curriculums which put doctrin within their lessons, I would rather my children not be subjected.

Go figure. I'm sad for your company and my feelings are hurt as well. :)

And Usborne are some of the best books on the market. My kids know evolutionism and can spot it when they see it. It hasn't "converted" them. They know what they believe...God's word!

Toni Wilson ( Who am I? ) said...

I am not a Christian(atheist actually), I don't use Sonlight, and I have been banned from "Christian" boards because I am not either Christian enough, or just plain Christian. I am writing to tell you that this is not news. Unfortunately, this is going in a lot of homeschooling circles I run in. People, "Christians", find some fault with you--you aren't their "brand", not "christian enough", don't practice or believe in this theory or that. You and I can agree on this: it is entirely sad. We, as homeschoolers, have enough issues to deal with, we certainly do not need this one. Yet it is happening all over and in increasing, alarming, and disturbing numbers. I just recently blogged about how sad it was that "Christians" refused to watch the Inauguration simply because he wasn't "their guy". Is this what the world of homeschooling has come to? That you refuse to teach your kids politics or watch something so historic, simply because he isn't "your guy"; or that you deny homeschoolers access to a tool that they may or may not use (and how will they ever know if it isn't available for them to check out), simply because that tool doesn't teach it the way *you*(general) think it should be taught?

CHEC is doing itself a disservice. Even though I don't use your product, I do not think their behavior is fair, warranted, and it certainly does not make Christians look good to us non-believers, when you spend more of your time splitting hairs over such trivial things, instead of actually reading your bible and truly grasping what it means to you.

I am sorry you are going through this. I find it a sad commentary all around, that the homeschooling world has come to this. Such a waste of time and effort, to see us (homeschoolers) splitting hairs and fighting over things that of a personal nature.

Yes, I am signing my name. There are those who will be reading this and know I am speaking directly to them. They need to hear what I am saying just as much as you needed to say what you did. Kudos for having the guts to do so.

Toni Wilson aka GothicGyrl, a homeschooling mom, not a Christian, and disgusted.

Jill in Kentucky ( Who am I? ) said...

Excellent article John. Thanks you for expressing it. When folks on the other side of any question refuse to even allow an open discussion, that is a sure sign that their position is defenseless. Most definitely a close look at the Scriptures, removing any pre-conceived biases and looking only at the Scriptures, at the very MINIMUM there is the possibility that the earth is much older than 6000 years. Linguisitically "the earth became chaos and vacant" is a possibility, if not definitive; thereby allowing for at least the possibility of an old earth; even among Bible believers. But if minds are made up beforehand, there is no hope of earnestly seeking what the Scriptures are really saying. Thanks again for sharing your thoughts.

Bob Evely
Wilmore, Kentucky

Kay Brooks ( Who am I? ) said...

Sorry to read this John. The gatekeepers are at it again.

Mrs. C ( Who am I? ) said...

Sorry. Not tech savvy here and am confused about how to leave a "link," but this post is linked to yours:

http://homeschoolnetc.blogspot.com/2009/01/teaching-about-jesus-all-day.html

Blessings!

Mrs. C

Sandy ( Who am I? ) said...

If I lived in Colorado, this organization would be hearing from me...but they wouldn't be getting my membership. It likely wouldn't matter to me what their reasons were. It is a slippery slope when we think we should start deciding for one another who/what is "Christian enough" and who isn't. We need to remember that it wasn't that long ago that homeschooling our children was not even a legal option. This kind of division weakens our freedoms.

Heather ( Who am I? ) said...

I am not sure which I find more odd, the fact that they oust SL when nothing has changed from years past or that they have so little faith in God to deal with the hypothetical child.

If I were in an argumentative mood I would bring up the topic of predestination. :D

Heather

Anonymous said...

I also read "Young-Earth and Old-Earth Creationists: Can We Even Talk to One Another?"

I am neither YEC nor OEC.

I think that the issue for YEC is that accepting OEC somehow it validates evolution: Old Earth and evolution are synonymous.

This whole mess parallels the eschatology: you are not a Christian if you do not accept the pre-tribulation rapture, 7 year tribulation, etc.

Jaime R. Purcell

Melinda said...

I appreciate being informed of this. Unfortunately, I am not surprised as I have seen this creeping litmus test pushed into many areas of homeschooling.

Non-essentials of the Christian faith used to be discussed and debated, but both parties agreed everyone was still a Christian in the end. Now non-essentials of the faith (such as the age of the universe at creation) are being moved into the realm of essentials of the Christian faith as a way to exclude "others".

How these people have become the default authority who decides if you are "in" or "out", I do not know. But they need to be held accountable. I plan to do just that, now that I have the facts of what happened with Sonlight. Thank you again for telling the behind the scenes situation.

Tim Martin ( Who am I? ) said...

John,

Thanks for going public about this disappointing development.

I recommend Sonlight Curriculum every chance I get to homeschoolers that are investigating curriculum options.

Keep up the good work! We need to be challenged by many points of view if we ever want to benefit from real education.

Blessings,

Tim Martin
co-author, Beyond Creation Science
www.BeyondCreationScience.com

Anonymous said...

I wondered why Sonlight wasn't at the convention, and I find the reason disturbing. I read your article on Young/Old Earth about 2 years ago (when Ken Ham was at the 2007 convention), because I was struggling with getting on the Young Earth bandwagon. It's not that I don't think a Young Earth is possible or even likely...just that I don't agree with what I perceive to be the vilification of those who hold other views by some Young Earth proponents. Your thoughts resonate with my own. I personally see the Holy Spirit alive and at work in the lives of individuals on both sides of this controversy and don't feel the need to take a side given my own lack of expertise on the subject.

Our family uses a lot of Sonlight and we appreciate your hearts!

~Elizabeth Barber

Melinda S. said...

John, I was at the CHEC convention last year, and I was HORRIFIED! There were, apparently, MANY vendors who were not able to come. However, one particular sub-group of homeschoolers (one which goes FAR beyond basic Biblical guidelines for Christian livint) was very much in attendance there. It was very sad--"these variations are OK, those are not."

What was odd is that several vendors there DO use a LOT of Usborne books, some of the same ones Sonlight uses. Some of them DO NOT have the young earth resources that Sonlight uses prominently.

I suspect it was the "can we even talk" article that caused the problem. As you pointed out, they don't want to talk about these things.

Worse, because of their narrow interpretation of the Bible (in other areas besides young earth creationism as well), they cannot really talk about it--we are "clearly" in rebellion against God's word, so are ungodly, and there is nothing to talk about.

I don't think there is anything we can do about this, except to continue our willingness to grant others their freedom in Christ.

Melinda S.
(you know me as "Little Women")

Andrea ( Who am I? ) said...

John - (this is a bit off post...)

I vaguely remember when you came into the SL forums saying "Hhhmm...not so sure about the Young Earth thing"...

Can you tell me what it was that changed your mind or opened your mind to other dates?

I am an Young-Earth believer..Based solely upon my own research.

But am open, of course, to alternative ideas, factual demonstrations, etc.

Honestly, I AM a fan of AIG, Hamm, and others...but am more than willing to read towards other "Biblical" side of things...But What Are They?

AIG has a great marketing presence...I need help in the balance.

TIA,

Andrea
aka "Formyboys" in SL land

Anonymous said...

That kind of one-sided thinking is why after the first CHEA conference we attended in CA we decided to have as little to do with CHEA as possible. At that time we were independently homeschooling, but their demonizing parents who did opt for whatever reason to use a charter school was horrid.

I have used Sonlight for 3 years of our Homeschooling, and we LOVED it with one child.

But alas I am not organized enough to pull off 2 cores at once, so we had to make some changes in what we are using to something which worked better for our family in the scheduling area. That does not mean that Sonlight does not hold a special place in our hearts, and I am sad to see it come to this where Christian organizations go after one another in this manner.

I am a YEC in the sense that I believe that when God formed what we see and know today that he took 7 literal days, and yet I found it very refreshing to find your article in your catalog describing how and why you had come to the conclusions you hold. That kind of honesty allows the consumer to be well informed and choose for himself whether this curriculum is a good fit. You also have done an excellent job of teaching both sides of the issue which is important, our children need to be educated, not indoctrinated. This is one reason we homeschool!

Diane H. Homeschooling momma to 4

Anonymous said...

Wow!
A sad commentary on Christians, when you need to think for someone else.
I, with several other ladies, am in charge of the local homeschool conference in our area. I am the person directly responsible for lining up our speakers. While I would never have someone in who was teaching directly contrary to traditional Biblical theology, I also do not only have Christian speakers. My belief is that we are all intelligent enough to figure out what we believe, and why. If I need to become the "thought police" for the almost 1000 people who attend our one day conference, I would resign immediately!! What a misuse of power....
Aileen, in Kitchener, Ontario, Canada

De'Etta @ Choosing Joy ( Who am I? ) said...

Goodness. I'm not a SL user (though I was years ago - when we still had the BRIGHTLY colored covers and elementary years only)....but I find this stance from CHEC to be sad, misguided and even offensive.

It seems like a very silly fight for them to have picked. Sadly, I'm not surprised. We are military and have experienced support groups in various states...we've found this attitude to be fairly common. Most often we're about ready to move when the group decides we are orthodox enough to accept. LOL

Anonymous said...

Andrea stated, "Honestly, I AM a fan of AIG, Hamm, and others...but am more than willing to read towards other "Biblical" side of things...But What Are They?"

Andrea, here is an excellent place to start.

http://www.beyondcreationscience.com/index.php?pr=Buy_the_Book

Jill said...

John;
Thanks for the letter. SInce this has effected me personally in a very financial way I am sad that CHEC continues the stance. I did go over to their website and unfortunatley Kevin Swanson blog has been down since you posted this. WHen a final word comes down officially can you repost?
Thanks John for all you and Sarita do.
God Bless

Amy ( Who am I? ) said...

That is just sad beyond words.

One of the reasons we LOVE Sonlight is BECAUSE it broaches these subjects. It gives us parents the opportunity to tell our children about them from our viewpoint.

Our children WILL hear about these things. Whether they hear them from us is all that's up to us to decide.

Ramed ( Who am I? ) said...

John,

Welcome to the club. Would you like a list of topics that keep me from being invited to speak? After YEC/OEC argument, eschatology is next on the list. When you become a partial preterist, non-dispensational, post millennialist, then you'll really know what being banned is all about. John, keep the good work. The gatekeepers can't stand guard forever.

Gary DeMar

Anonymous said...

Jill, his blog is still up. You can see it here.

Jill said...

thanks for providing a link to Kevin Swanson's blog. I appreciate it.

Anonymous said...

I am REALLY put off by them. Too bad too - because I only live up in Elizabeth and it sure would be nice to be accepted as a moderate Christian and join them down in Parker.

Anyway - even though I write my own history curriculum - I support and promote Sonlight as an excellent alternative for my website viewers and will continue to do so not only because I feel the curriculum is quality, but because they are one of the few curriculums out there that respect people's decision to omit Bible study from their homeschool.

Freedom is a beautiful thing.

Anonymous said...

On a homeschooling forum, a member said she called CHEC about this and was told the main reason for excluding Sonlight is that a large majority of the books used in the program are secular. CHEC is concerned that parents going to the CHEC conference would expect only Christian or Bible-based curriculum and feel misled.

That still amounts to "Sonlight isn't Christian enough for CHEC" from my perspective, and it's odd that they wouldn't just come out and say this when you asked for clarification previously, but I thought I would pass along the info.

John Holzmann ( Who am I? ) said...

Thank you, all, for your comments. The last Anonymous commenter points to something I had just begun to "pick up on" as a possible alternative explanation for what has transpired with CHEC.

I "just-so-happened" to begin reading the correspondence I had with Kevin Swanson of CHEC over the last year. And I had noticed some phrases that pushed in the direction Anonymous mentioned.

I will write something about that hopefully later today.

As the German soldier on the old Rowan & Martin's Laugh-In program used to say (heavy German accent with the rolled R): "Ve-r-r-r-r-y interesting!"

Anonymous said...

I just found the thread related to the CHEC decison on the SL forums. I am definetly shocked at the turn of events, seemingly so sudden.

We are missionaries here in Denver with Youth With A Mission, and find the SL curriculum so refreshing. Many, many Christians take the side of CHEC, I was HS with a very Christian narrow minded circulium. I did not want that for my girls. We want our children to be the hands and feet of Christ on earth, if you are not willing to know what is going on in our world and be willing to at times get down right dirty in it, than what the heck are you doing calling yourself a Christian. Remember who the disciples actually were, they were hand picked by Jesus. Definitely not who the church would want.

Ironically we signed up with CHEC as a covering for our first year in HS. I will in response be writing a complaint to CHEC.

Julo ( Who am I? ) said...

My stars--I knew immediately when I moved to Colorado a few years ago that something was fishy with CHEC. I've since asked to be taken off their mailing list. I encourage other parents in our tiny remote town to carefully decide if what CHEC stands for is in line with their own family's views. It really goes beyond the young earth stuff. Read Karen's blog over at http://thatmom.wordpress.com for a great treatment of the issues at hand.

Anonymous said...

Blessings to John & Sarita Holzzman, Staff and Family,

Thank you for enlightening me on this disturbing matter! I never take the time to blog, write letters to editors, etc. but, this time, I can’t let it pass.

I have been a dedicated Sonlighter about nine years and a supporter of CHEC to a point. My husband and I are deeply committed evangelical Christians and have five of our six (sixth is an infant) children following in our passion for the Lord.

Just this last week, the first day of spring, two of our children crawled up into my lap individually and made a profession of faith. They “wanted their name in the Big Book!” It was real, and deeply meaningful.

Our journey has been nothing short of fantastic! We love being together each day and use Sonlight as one of our tools to bring us close, discuss, laugh, and lead us to the cross as we realize the need for a savior for all of God’s people.

My 13 yo dd and I just had a discussion, two days ago- about how much more we appreciate the different kinds of people groups of the world. She’s just finishing Core 5. I explained how I had NO appreciation for that part of the world much less its people, so different from me, in my upbringing! She couldn’t fathom that. She has such a heart for missions and hopes to be a bible translator! Anyway, enough rambling, I just had to get that in.

These experiences are priceless! I’ve seen other curriculum out there and can’t imagine that kind of depth being fostered by any of it. It boils down to using wisdom and discernment that can only come from our Lord. No amount of “Christian” curriculum can do that for us! In fact, I believe that it has great potential to ‘can’ our faith and push our children away from the faith.

I, too, have been bothered by some trends by CHEC and ministry ‘leaders,’ they support. I have MANY of their materials, esp. Vision Forum’s. I think that we have to ‘take what works for us (with the leading of the Holy Spirit!), and leave the rest.” They have some good gems. Right now, next to me, I’m looking at a whole shelf full of VF videos that are still shrink wrapped that I’ve had about a year that I just haven’t been motivated to get to! (Unlike the new shelf full of Sonlight books, Core Alt. 7, which I just shelved last night, that my kids and I are nearly foaming at the mouth to get to but won’t begin until late summer-much to their chagrin’!) Hmm . . .

Not being the most articulate writer, juggling six children and their schedules, I have a hard time putting my finger on what rubs me the wrong way. Now I know, it’s been said so well here. I now have to question if I want to attend the CHEC conference that I was so looking forward to (to uncover some of those rare gems, amidst ‘more of the same’ that bothers me”) or ask for a refund for my tickets.

Thank you for taking the time to continue to educate us on this journey. My husband and I continually seek to hear from God and to see the blind spots in our lives that may need tweaking or a full repentance from. I do not want to be a stench or a legalistic Pharisee to those around me. I want to always, through deep commitment for what I am called to do, be graceful to those around me and not come across as their Holy Spirit. As I’ve heard it said, “There is only ONE Holy Spirit and I’m not him!”

Thank you for all you do to encourage us on this journey. This morning has been a refining moment in my journey!

Anonymous
Colorado Springs, CO